As in – I am not bad.
I have spent too much time in my life telling myself that I am bad.
“I am bad” was a constant internal refrain.
If I made a mistake, I was bad.
A poor decision, bad.
A diet detour, bad.
Bad. Bad. Bad.
This led to much shame. And defeatism.
Kept me from improving, stretching, striving.
Why try if I am bad?
But this construct does not work for me anymore.
The world is not this black and white.
Bad and good is too simplistic.
And too harsh.
I may make a poor choice.
Even make a bad decision.
But that does not make me a bad person.
Instead of repeating over and over in my head that I am bad, I understand that I am a good person who made a bad choice.
To learn from it and hopefully make a better choice the next time.
The old bad/good dichotomy doesn’t really work for me anymore.
And if I know that about myself, then I think it must be true for other people.
Most of my brothers and sisters walking around on this planet are neither bad or good.
They are simply people who made choices.
Some bad, some good.
So if we can see that in others, that’s not a bad thing.
In fact, it is a recognition of our combined humanity.
And that is …. not bad.